One year ago

Me one year ago, travelling towards Australia

I can't believe on this day one year ago, I was on my way to Australia, so much has happened since I took away, so many memories, both happy and sad, even new memories back home, A new plan, new goals, new memories are being made. New friendships all around the world. I miss Australia, I really do, and right now, feeling like this, it would be nice to get away for a bit of time. But then again, I've missed being home, but gosh, there's so much stuff I need to figure out, and dunno what to do. Just gotta take one day at a time. (:

Just got my passion back

So my grandfather just arrange a lunch where I could met a guy who is studying to be a pilot, and I could ask him all kind of stuff, and omg I've just regained my passion for being a pilot! It's been a dream for a long time, and talking to this guy, and getting answers from someone who is taking the education, just made me wanna do it even more! And now my goal is to save up money for this education! Then I'm ready to start my new life! No one can stop me! I wanna live my life and hope my dreams will collide with the real life! <3 Thank you Muffe for making this possible! You just helped me gain my passion again<3 

Drinking tonight

A picture from one of my nights out in Perth (; 

So tonight me and my best friend are having a drink night, and see if anyone comes, otherwise it's just her and me, and we'll have a blast of a party just the two of us! She's the best! Trying to forget things, just drink the brain out ? (not that I'm doing it, but would be nice? :b) 

anyhow I'm trying to find a weekend where I can go to Sweden to meet one of my friends from oz (she was an aupair aswell (: ) 

What my day goes with

So yeah what does my day go by with? At the moment I'm not doing much, I'm working on our stairs, so I'm removing paint from the floor, so that's pretty much it, watching some tv, making some things at home, making it look pretty. It's a bit sad that my friends mostly are at school, and those you want to see, doesn't really contact you, or sets a day where you can be together. I know I said I was gonna let it go, but guard it bothers me that the person doesn't even wanna make time to be with me. So now, fuck it! I'm giving up, I've given up, no more, I'm not gonna use my energy on it anymore.. Sucks ! Some times I wish i could turn my brain off, and just be a bit numb, you know? Your thoughts just go in circles and I want it to stop.. --'

Yesterday I watched the stars, it was very beautiful, and made me think about the time when I was in Airlie Beach, where we were on a boat trip and watched the stars at night, so beautiful <3 

Having a crush

Falling in love pretty much sucks in my case, because every time it happens, I'm always alone in the crush, the person never picks me, or just want me as a friend. And it hurts, not like breaking my heart big time hurt, but hurts to know I'm not good enough to make this person happy, as the person makes me feel. It's sad because in this time of your life you want to find someone who loves you. You see all these happy couples everywhere, and you just look at them like "please go away, I don't want to see your happiness, cause I want it too, and it never really happens.." So yeh, just taking one day at a time, trying not to think about it much. Leaving it alone, seeing what happens. Words can be one thing to say, but to show what you say is a totally different thing. Sry I'm in a bit sad mood, it was just at this party so much stuff was said to me, and caught we off guard, and it totally ruined the hole party for me. And I ended up being really sad because all of these things that was said, and since that party I've been going in circles in my mind about it.. Being pretty sad.  So now I've told myself to leave the person alone, see if it the person even wants to see me or not. I'm not trying anymore, been trying a lot, and I can't use my energy on being disappointing every time I get left behind. I'm done. If you really want to see me, be my friend, show it, make time to see me. Right now time is all I have, not doing anything until the 28th of September. So show it to me, don't just use words, it doesn't work that way, I feel left behind.
Thinking about all the things we said, all the things we planned, seeing it all fall apart, not happening, it makes me sad, it makes me wonder how much of it was true, and how much was real...

So now I'm gonna leave my blog alone (again) and try to write when I have something new (like when I start in school or something, so yeh, if you still follow this blog, my dear I'm proud of you, and I like you for still following my life<3) 

Can't believe it

I can't believe that in under a week I'll be without a job, I'll be in a situation I hate being in, I need to figure out my life, I need to make my decisions, and I just can't figure anything out.. 

Summer is still going strong here in Denmark, the weather was amazing last week, and this week it's a bit more like Autumn, but still warm compared to that the summer should almost be over s: ¨

My work has taken so much of my time, and I seriously feel like all I've been doing since I came home was working, and the time has just flown by, it's crazy to think that I've been home for a couple of months. 

Sitting thinking about Australia, makes me a bit sad, I miss the children the most, but also the easy life, the life with nothing (well at least that's what was suppose to happen) to worry about, and  just living the life. Here I need to make a lot of freaking decisions, that I don't feel like I'm ready for yet. I wish I could just jump on a plane again and go back!

But then again, I would miss friends and family too much here in Denmark, I've gotten so used to talk danish again, that when I finally talk english, I think I have lost my Aussie accent ): A bit sad about that, but hey! I will one day come back to that beautiful country and see MUCH MORE! 

So yeah, on Sunday we have this biiiig party at my work, like a goodbye party, and I'm looking forward to it, and yeh, it's gonna be a bit weird not working with the big family out there, I'm gonna miss a lot of people ):  I hope that I'm gonna keep in contact with some of my friends from work, cause I was away I have no idear who's gonna be here this year, I don't know how it was last year s: 

Busy

I simply feel very busy at the moment, that I forget to post on my blog ): so much stuff is happening, and instead of sitting on my computer, blogging, I'm trying to live my life! So guys! Summer in Denmark is almost over, but! I've had an amazing time so far in my own country with family and friends! <3