What my day goes with

So yeah what does my day go by with? At the moment I'm not doing much, I'm working on our stairs, so I'm removing paint from the floor, so that's pretty much it, watching some tv, making some things at home, making it look pretty. It's a bit sad that my friends mostly are at school, and those you want to see, doesn't really contact you, or sets a day where you can be together. I know I said I was gonna let it go, but guard it bothers me that the person doesn't even wanna make time to be with me. So now, fuck it! I'm giving up, I've given up, no more, I'm not gonna use my energy on it anymore.. Sucks ! Some times I wish i could turn my brain off, and just be a bit numb, you know? Your thoughts just go in circles and I want it to stop.. --'

Yesterday I watched the stars, it was very beautiful, and made me think about the time when I was in Airlie Beach, where we were on a boat trip and watched the stars at night, so beautiful <3