Everyone has a breakdown

Well, my blog is all about honesty, and that I will try to keep up. So yeah, this weekend I had a little breakdown, and I just felt like everything I did was wrong, and I wasn’t good enough, even though I know that isn’t true, I just couldn’t stop thinking about everything, and how much I wanted to talk to someone about everything, and just cry it all out. I just needed it, you know? I just felt like the hole world fell down on me, and I wasn’t strong enough to keep it up.

But after having a little breakdown, I now feel much better, and today I even had a playdate, and yeah, that’s pretty funny, haha! Because the playdate was late, then I forgot the time, and when I looked at it, I needed to run to the school, to get Tyler, and then we all went to our house, and the kids had a really good playdate all together.

But yeah, I just really miss being able to talk to my mom at dinnertime, and having a sleep in, or being able to walk to my best friend’s house. I miss being able to have something to talk about.

Yesterday, they convinced me to go out, but I felt totally in the wrong place, all Matt’s and Jo’s friends were there, and I didn’t really know what to  talk about, or anything, I just felt like I was a bit in the way, and I know they want the best for me, and they like me, and all that, but sometimes it hard to see, when you feel a little alone, and I have no idear what to talk about.. But otherwise, I’m much better today, and I’m trying to keep my shit together and be strong. And in the end, when I’m finished over here, I’m so much stronger than before, because I can’t just take a plane back to Denmark, it takes over a day to get there, so I have to keep it together, and come out on the other side much stronger, and I always seems to find the things that are always messed up :b haha! I apparently have something to learn :b

Otherwise, I hope you guys had a good weekend<3

And thx to the people I’ve talked to this weekend, thx for the support :*<3